Listening to: My Chemical Romance
Reading: Sacre Bleu
Watching: Continue? show on YouTube
Playing: The Banner Saga
Eating: Egg Salad
IF DECK IS SALTY THERE WILL BE LASHINGS
I've been home, sitting in a dark house with no heat from Monday (Oct. 29) until Thursday (Nov. 1) thanks to wretched Hurricane Sandy. Power wasn't restored at the bakery until last Monday. I just went back to work a couple days ago, but with so little business coming in (because Hoboken NJ got pretty badly knocked around and transportation into Hoboken is broken,) our hours are getting reduced until things are back to normal. Which is scary, because right now I'm sitting in the middle of a blizzard. (There are some people who don't even have power yet, and its snowing. Great.) Sooooo I'm probably going to be opening up some commissions because I'm really going to need the extra money. More on that as soon as I figure out my terms and pricing. I would really love any suggestions you guys might have on what kind of merch I could sell. (maybe I'll create a poll, too. Hmmm...) I'm thinking about making some Christmas e-cards for you guys to send to your loved ones, too.
and now for some grumbling....
I know I've not been very active on DA in a very long while. I've been trying to branch out. My boyfriend thinks this site is not appropriate for a professional portfolio, and while I agree that I haven't given it the polishing it deserves, and its not the same as my very own personal website, I've been on DA for such a long time, I feel like its sort of become a big part of who I am, and I can't really let it go. I keep telling myself that there is a potential for reconstruction. DA has become so flexible and adjustable, you can turn your page into whatever you want it to be. There's no reason to just throw this all away if I could just make it look better. If you google my name, you're going to find this page, whether I like it or not, so if an employer wanted to find this stuff, they would. I don't really know whether to treat it as a burden or a security blanket, and I hate to admit that it might be holding me back. I feel comfortable on this site. Maybe I'm at a crossroads here, where I'll have to decide if I'm going to give my gallery the attention it needs to look better, or sweep this whole messy page under the rug and try to reinvent how I present myself as an artist. I'll admit, there are things I've posted here that I'm less than proud of, and would rather not let any eyes other than my own (and the select few who really love it for what it is.)
So, to sum up, I'm just not sure yet whether I'm going to keep my account on DA, or continue using it as a graveyard for old work I just don't know what to do with anymore, or to do a total make over so I can send potential clients here without the guilt and shame of knowing something that doesn't represent me as an artist might be seen. Blegh. At the moment, thinking too much about it just makes me tired.
"Chloroform the one that you love. And take her back."